I'm a single older mom (53) of 2 boys.  My youngest (19) just joined the AF.  My oldest (22) is in college, sometimes employed, mostly living off my limited income.  I had to leave my job on disability 5-1/2 years ago and I'm still waiting for my former employer to decide on my retirement benefits.  In the mean time I'm hitting bottom, have returned to school to change professions so I can re-enter the job market in my current capacity.  My hearing date is approaching (next 3 weeks) and my anxiety level is code red.  I've been surviving pretty well, but this year has really got me down.  My oldest is angry with me for not getting a job, not going anywhere, not doing anything even though he's living at home on a free ride while I pay the mortgage, pay for the food he eats and try to avoid drowning under a pile of unpaid bills.  I've decided to sacrifice the time to retrain, but it's hard with this kid and his constant contempt for me. He, however, sees nothing wrong with his behavior.  He's even consulted my ex who concurs with him, so I guess there's a consensus, now.  I could use a friend out there, even help with the bills, but otherwise, I'd just like to know if I'm really that much of a loser and should go work at McDonald's or go for it and continue with the education.   I'm still 3 years away from the finish line, so it looks like it's going to get really rough.  Well, thanks for letting me ramble.